dusty

Look closely at that thing.

Does this mean my dreams are dusty?

It wouldn't surprise me actually - years of insomnia and panic aren't really good for dreaming.

However, the i and p aren't as bad as they used to be, so maybe my dreams were just sitting around waiting to get through, and when they finally did, the catcher filtered out the dust for me.

I've had a few good dreams recently.

In one, I'm looking up at a huge dark wicker chair with back and sides flaring out like wings. The chair is floating next to my mom's closet in some house I don't recognize. All her best clothes were hanging from the bottom of the chair, like they do.

And flying dreams, I have lots of those. No planes or gliders or kites or anything, just me with arms outstretched zooming around and dive bombing just for kicks and giggles, and getting that buzzing funny dizzy feeling in my stomach that I also get when I drive down a hill or a long stretch of road too fast.

The writing dream is my favorite - sitting at a table wrapped in a fuzzy sweater, writing by hand by candlelight, and there's a man with dark hair standing behind me, leaning down to read over my shoulder. He  rests his cheek against my head and his hand on my shoulder - my right shoulder, which is good, since I'm left-handed, so when the words come out of my head down my neck and through my arm and hand onto the page, I don't want my left shoulder weighted down with anything or there might be a back-up of words, and I get moody when that happens. I don't know who he is when I'm awake, but I seem to know who he is in my dream, and he likes what I write even if my handwriting is bad and the story is plodding along and there's too much passive voice. He knows I'll fix it eventually, and he just tells me to keep writing because he wants to read more of the story

My sister bought this dreamcatcher for me at a shop near the beach years ago. I'm about to move it for the first time in 11 years. I hope there aren't any straggler dreams that haven't come through yet because my time in this condo is running out.