and it juuuuuust keeps getting better

I must preface this entry by stating that I've just taken a Xanax, so please forgive accordingly:

So I'm definitely out of CMCG for good. Even after making me scramble to take the writing assessment and then having to interview at the last minute yesterday, the other subsidiary decided they don't want me because there's an outside candidate that they like better. I found this out this morning. My mom and Angel think this is because they can get someone cheaper, but with less experience.

And the icing on the cake was the lay-off meeting at 4:30 today. What fun that was. Again, I think they were expecting me to react somehow, but I knew it was coming anyway, so my old boss escorted me to my office and told me I had to give her my key fob and leave my laptop, and that I could come back on Saturday to pack up the rest of my stuff and get any of my personal files off of my computer, and then she escorted me out of the building. I know of at least one other person who was part of the layoff, and I only know that because she was coming out of the meeting room as I was going in. There will be more, and I feel bad for everyone. I was at least lucky enough to have some warning signs show up pretty early, so I was able to get other things in place (like an updated resume) and get used to the idea of leaving, and I've got prospects and interviews lined up already.

Still, a girl can only take so much rejection in one day, hence the Xanax.

Several good things happened today, though. Gwen and Heather offered drinks, and Bob offered gourmet comfort food; however, in my current drug-induced state, going anywhere is probably not a good idea. And for my birthday, Angel sent me a Neil Gaiman book that I'd been wanting, and that arrived today, and she also sent me a pep talk e-mail (she's going through a similar career change), which was quite useful and quite true:

"The universe knew it time for you to make a change. You'll find a job that's better and that you like more.

"I've been telling myself that it's a chapter ending. Time to start a brand new chapter with brand new events and new characters. And this is the part in the story where everything starts to become more interesting and exciting...

"Just view this as your opportunity to find a job that you like more and suits you better."

Who says there aren't guardian angels out there? Thanks, babes.