silent treatment

Being blown off by someone is an interesting phenomenon. It makes you wonder what you did wrong, and if you're a horrible person. And you start analyzing yourself and every conversation you had, and every look, and interaction, and gesture, and what did you miss, and why did you miss it, and were your doubts legitimate or just you being silly, and how could you be so stupid, and is it some karmic punishment for something you did at some other time? It's ironic too, because you'll never know since they won't talk to you, and yet prior to the wall of silence, you had gotten your hopes up because you thought you had finally gotten it right and had made a good choice, which makes it all the more depressing and disappointing to think you may have been wrong after all, so how can you trust your own judgement in the future? And it wounds you, especially when you feel like you made an effort and did things for them and did better this time around than last time and tried not to repeat the same mistakes as last time, and yet it made no difference in the end, and you wonder why you bother trying if people will just treat you that way, and you just want to crawl into a hole and hope everyone forgets about you because you feel like some horrific repulsive flaw or other must be written on your face that all can see. And finally, you wonder how you'll get through it, and if you ever will. And you wish the headache would go away so you could sleep.