more birthday stuff

Plans are underway for my 30th birthday in May. I asked for something simple and low-key with the family, and there seems to be some confusion as to what that means. I guess that means I need to take the reins and plan it. I'm thinking a picnic on my aunt's farm. I'm thinking my mother makes my cake, like she used to do for me and my sister when we were kids - she created some masterpieces. I'm thinking everyone gives me a piece of advice on turning 30 (to get it out of their systems) rather than tangible gifts. I'm thinking that the last time I had an extended-family birthday party, I was four or five. I'm thinking what's really going to change between 29 and 30? I'm thinking I'm too young to be 30. I'm thinking I'd better start being more grateful that people think I only look 25, because who knows how long that will last? I'm thinking I should have accomplished more by now, though I don't know what "more" is. I'm thinking I think too much.